"Being my real self took a backseat in my 20s and 30s because of various relationships. I have had my own place for 11 years now and my true self is so desperate to get through and be heard it's tearing my emotions apart constantly on a day-to-day basis. I think I've cried more times in the last month than I have in my entire life and I am a serious wimp that never stops crying. 😂
I was given an analogy today about Madeleine being locked in prison. She has finally been set free but she is sad for all the wasted years where she has been told to hide in the shadows. I can't fault this logic. I'm having trouble writing this through the tears. I'm just so so overwhelmed with happiness at finally realising what has been holding me back on my life. As I've previously said elsewhere I've had 4 years of anxiety and panic attacks, chest pains, hospital visits etc. etc. Well, the penny finally dropped when I spoke to my old therapist last week. There's nothing wrong with me, I've just been too scared to be me."
Read the whole story over at CDL.
