"For as long as I can remember I have wanted to feminize myself and turn myself into a female. I have always just wanted to appear and be taken as a female. To blend in - the impossible fantasy.
I have been on low dose estrogen (with supervision) on and off over the years and they have had their effects on my mind and body. I very much like the effects and feel a great deal of inner satisfaction from these effects of which are many. In a perfect world it would be wonderful to transition full time but the idea is simply soooo scary. Worrying about being judged, rejected, laughed at in the street these fears are very, very real. I feel I face a constant inner battle between living a life expected of me and wanting to be the female I have always fantasied about being."
From a discussion over at the Crossdream Life forums.
